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A day in the life

I’ve wanted to write this for a while now. I started a new series on my YouTube channel (linked here) called ‘The Reset Series’ and it’s a series dedicated to supporting people with worry, anxiety and depression, in whatever form that make take. It’s designed to be an open conversation about Mental Health that allows a community to chat, exchange tips whilst being positive and open. It is not a place to feel sorry for yourself, instead, feel safe in the knowledge that you are not alone, and someone somewhere feels like you do.

It’s been going so well and knowing that it’s helping people spurs me on. After all, I started the series because anxiety and worry are things that I can struggle with myself.

I wanted to address this here, on my blog, because I haven’t really touched on it before. The way I wanted to do this was to share a day in my life with you, in pictures and in feelings.

This was documented on a Friday. A lovely day because James was off work and we got to have some quality time together, coffee, lunch, shopping. The most chilled day. Except that I feel on edge for most of the day and was on the verge of ruining it all with my loss of patience, panic and low mood.

I started off my day like most others, pottering around in  my dressing gown, taking time to get ready and do bits of work in between whilst James caught up on the footy highlights. We work well like that, we’re really relaxed in our home together so I love just being around him.

Then we walked to our local coffee shop to get a coffee, now, caffeine isn’t my friend when I’m feeling off, it almost fuels a panic attack! So this was probably my first mistake….that and being due on my period AT ANY MOMENT meaning my hormones were quite literally through the roof. The next mistake was going to Westfield- it was bedlam and the crowds just made me more and more agitated.

We popped to the tip- which is a satisfying thing to do, when you’ve got the world and his wife in cardboard form accumulating in your hallway. This is where it started to affect me. I was short with James, in a bad little mood and all because I was having an internal meltdown. I felt on edge, panicky, and snappy. I knew it was my hormones and the coffee at this point, and I can be quite the rational woman about it, but can you always stop it? can you hell.

We went about our day, and I stifled these feelings as much as possible, and it’s true, you can be so high functioning even when you feel like your world is crashing down around you, just remember you’ll always be okay and you’ll always get through it. I’m lucky that James understands more about what happens to me now, and he will give me the space to calm down, talk me round a bit and make me think about things more logically and less emotionally. It was only once we got home, and I felt settled again, with my camomile tea in hand, that I really started to feel calmer.

Cheers to him for that.

I hope this has helped you even a tiny bit. It happens to more people than you think, on some level. The Reset Series explores this in more depth so give it a watch if you feel you’re struggling because you absolutely don’t have to do it on your own. Feel free to message me too.

Thanks so much for reading and take care of yourself xx

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Pen

Excellent and informative post as always Lindsey! Thank you X

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Lindsey

Thank you so much xx

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Laura Gray

As soon as I saw this post on your insta stories I swiped up in a kind of weird excitement- Thank you for this. I have high functioning anxiety. As a teacher that means I put a face on pretty much every day even though my mood can be so low and feel like I’m seeing the world all cloudy and slow. Internally I’m panicking but I just smile through it half the time. It’s so good to know it’s not just me and the comfort that the conversation being opened by someone so visible on social media brings is amazing. Thank you again. Take care of yourself too x

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Lindsey

thank you for saying this Laura. God it’s so hard isn’t it. BUT you’re doing an amazing job. Most people would call in sick…not us! Take care of yourself xxx

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Melanie

Thank you! Reading this make me feel not alone. It’s a hard time for me and my anxiety these days. So thank you again x

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Lindsey

You are so welcome and I hope you’re managing okay. Sending love and take care! xx

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Isabelle Hardy

This is such a beautiful post. Beautifully shot and so raw – thank you for sharing, your Reset Series has given me some comfort through some difficult times. <3

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Lindsey

Thank you so much Isabelle. That means a lot- i am so happy to hear it has helped you in some way. Take care and sending love xx

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Wendy

Lindsay I just want to say how much I’ve been enjoying your reset series and your chats and contents on anxiety. I’ve never properly addressed my problems with being anxious and always tried to brush the feelings off as me overreacting. But having anxiety problems can really affect me in such a big way which I’ve only recently started to realise. Tiny things can make me so anxious to the point that I cannot even breath sometimes and being in a big crowd can also make me super agitated. I’m loving the contents you put out on your channels and platforms and they help me to view my anxiety in a more positive way. Keep them coming girl ! <3

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Lindsey

I am so happy you’re finding it helpful. You’ve got to look after yourself, you’re the most important person in your life. Take care honey xx

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Gry

Thank you for this post.
I am a new follower and new in realizing that i am anxiose and that i have been it for a long time. It is comforting to hear that your boyfriend taking it so well and to Hear you describe a day like i sometimes expirence it.
Sometimes i feel like nobody could ever love me with my unstable mood, even though i know my boyfriend does and that vulnerability maybe is just glue to connect deeper.
It is just nice to know that that i am not alone in having days like this. Thank you.

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Katie

Sounds exactly like me today! Due on my period, and had a coffee, when I woke up feeling anxious- bad combo! Was at work and could feel it coming up my throat and tightening in my chest. I ended up going to the first aid room with my phone and headphones, and did a headspace session for 10 minutes, sprayed some rescue remedy and it really helped! I still feel super anxious but a million times better now I’m hope and cuddled on the sofa with my boyfriend. So nice to know it’s not just me! Xxx

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Nia

Rescue Remedy is my fall back too, that and St Johns Wort

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Liz Cook

It’s only been in the last few years that I’ve realised my similar feelings are due to anxiety and I’m much better placed to manage it now.
Thank you for an open conversation. xx

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Isabell

Thank you so much Lindsey sharing your experiences with us!!!! Even though it’s a bit strange to say but hearing that from other people feeling this way is quite calming cause sometimes I feel like I’m over dramatic or something else!
The last couple of days I was sick in bed and every time I get sick, my anxiety levels are out of this world! The best thing that helps me the most to get through that is to drink lots of tea watch something that for sure is going to make you laugh and talk to someone you love, trust and understands you when you’re in such condition! xxx♥️

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Isabell-Carmen

Thank you so much Lindsey sharing your experiences with us!!! It’s so strange to say but it helps actually a lot hearing from other people that their going through some feelings as I do! The last couple of days I was sick in bed and every time I get sick my anxiety levels are out of this world!! My mood changes are also very influenced by my period and sometimes when everything just comes together I’m freaking out for really no reason and that just upsets me even more!
But best ways I find to help myself to get back in track is to drink lots of tea, watch something that for sure is going to make you laugh (That’s friends for me☺️) and talk to someone that you trust and understands you when you’re in such condition! xxxxx
Thank you again babe sharing that with us!

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Camilla Nelsonn

Oh I understand this feeling too well, unfortunately! I snap at my husband when he asks me to come up with the most simple decisions, I feel pressured and exhausted to even choose what to have for dinner. My brain is never stopping and I am either anxious because I dread something or anxious because I am excited for the future! No matter what, I am down to have insomnia if I am sad OR happy, ugh. I am lucky to have a partner that understands me like James understands you too. I would say that 8 times out of 10 I am able to snap out of this funky mood, but it does take a lot of focus and commitment! Kudos to you for managing to enjoy yourself even though you didn’t feel like doing so (and also for turning it into some inspiring content!)
Camilla xx

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bettye

Laura Gray said it so well above: “high functioning anxiety.” That’s how I feel many days at work. I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop, for someone to “find me out” (even though I’ve done nothing wrong!), to blame me for something, to be mad at me, etc. I have that feeling Every Day at Work. It is so draining and life-sucking. I lie in bed in the morning chanting my mantra “just breathe. just stay calm.” Ugh. Friday afternoon never comes soon enough and within a few hours of leaving the building that afternoon, I feel normal. Until Sunday night.

I do find it helps to stay fed (ha ha) and not let my blood sugar drop. It doesn’t make the feelings go AWAY, but if I go too long without eating, it gets worse and then I find myself opening my mouth when I shouldn’t, letting stupid things out that I immediately regret. Ha. Sometimes I try to do a quick meditation in my car at lunch…and that can help a bit til something goes on back at work.

I’ve had a bit of a guilt complex (UNDERSTATEMENT) all my life and I think that’s part of the source of my anxiety…I’ve never been able to let that go entirely…and the culture of my office is to attack and blame people for things rather than trying to be constructive and figure out how to just make things work smoothly…so that just feeds into my natural feelings of guilt.

Sorry, my comment turned into a big vent! I look forward to the next “reset” episode.

Bettye

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Amber

it’s really meaningful to see you talking about this in such an honest way. I always look forward to the reset series videos, they’ve become my favorite YouTube series alongside Lizzy’s testing basics!

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